Relationships

on all parts of the spectrum from friendship to family are like dinner parties. They are only enjoyable when everyone participates on equal terms...........

Thinking

about ditching my net connection.......

I must be

stuck in a revolving door, I keep going round and round as people walk in and out at will.

I am starting to think

that you shouldn't tell people you care, just incase it is read the wrong way.

Thunderous clouds

rolled back in for a bit, but a little light that came on, time to shut the doors and remove myself from the outside world.

I often wonder

why I bother when all I get from it is a reminder that I am not worth it and a guilt about feeling let down. There has to come a point where enough is enough...... but is let down and not being worthy better than simply nothing, when nothing might as well mean nonexistance.

Sometimes the best things

flicker .... threatening to go out then regaining light and grow strong. There comes a point where before you know it they are gone....